Apologies for the long headline but I wanted to get the full question on there. This is the latest in my Friday Frivolity piece. Earlier pieces were about crazy jobs, summer reading and one or two others
A few months before moving from Maryland to Austin I wrote this piece attempting to sum up what I call my own dysfunctional relationship with music, namely that I love to listen music, especially live in close settings, but I have no actual musical abilities myself. Which is funny considering I was in middle school orchestra and high school band.
I felt something changing in recent weeks, though, which is what sparked this piece and open question. It used to be that I felt a need to have music going all the time, be it electronica and punk in college or what was then called alternative music in high school. This was also when I began to realize that I have a hard time writing about music. Seriously, I'd like to see you write a preview of a concert by the Meat Puppets where you can make sense of their lyrics.
Around the time I left journalism for education I began to see the value of silence and realize I could think better and more clearly when there was minimal music. Around the same time I began to listen to albums sent to me by Putumayo Records about different cultures and realized I could learn by listening to these albums. But I was noticing a general trend of spending less and less time listening to music outside of on the car stereo.
Which brings me to the stealing of my car stereo.
Within a month of my arrival in Austin my car stereo was stolen. Right while I was parked in a library parking lot and a day after NPR ran a story saying, essentially, nobody steals car stereo anymore. I wrote a response to NPR and submitted it as a letter but they didn't report it so the poor car thief will never know how out of style he or she is. Or, as I posited in the piece, the thief was just confused by my bumper sticker suggesting "voluntary simplicity." It's amazing how much adding the prefix "in" to voluntary changes its meaning, isn't it? I asked these questions in a letter i asked NPR to read aloud but they never did, as far as I know (while I love NPR I don't listen to it as much since I'm sitll without a car stereo)
So there I have been, with boxes and boxes of cds which are, in fact, still in boxes. Many are cds I'd normally only listen to in a car stereo. And at home I prefer silence or watching something from netflix to listening to music.
I have just been, generally, without really planning to, taking a fast from music. This is a far cry from days when I'd organize cds by artists....or the summer I even listened, in order, to every cd i owned (more than 300) to see if I can
regain what had, in some cases, been lost, namely appreciation for certain artists.
Plus when I left Maryland I was going to free live music three or four nights a week, often at a favorite coffeeshop
(which is partly inspired my current series of reviews searching for a new favorite coffeeshop in Austin). It was at that Hagerstown, Md, coffeeshop where I was caught once when being quite shy. - yes, i really am more likely to be speechless in person than online... until I get to trust you.
Put simply I used to listen to music a lot but lately it was rare for me to hear a full song let alone a full album when in an environment that I controlled.
But that changed within the last month. First I felt the urge to get some music to listen to at home while I write.. then I started a new job that lets me listen to music while I work.
Both changes happening at the same time, perhaps feeding off each other, made me reflect on the changes in my relationship with music and wonder if others have also noticed changes in their own relationship with music.







